Wow and i thought i was the one who was being bogus for seeing other girls. I guess Helen was lying the whole time making it seem like i was the only man for her. My mom told me that she came with another guy and it wasn't Ray or someone i knew, so it had to be someone she was talking to. Right now is the perfect time to break the news to heller but these damn legs can't even get me on my feet how am i supposed to tell her. Maybe i'll give her a call, no i'll just tell her to her face when i see her that will be much better.

What the hell!? Y am i in a hospital? What happened? How did i end up in here? Hold on.. all i remember is talking to someone on the phone. And then walking out into the athletic field for something i can't remember what for. Then there was this blinding flash and a big bang like a powerful firework just went off! But then i went blank from there. Wait a minute, for some reason i can't feel my legs! why?! o god please tell me why?! why me? Damn i couldn't believe it and i still can't but now i am forced to believe it. Someone out there knows about what happened last summer. I can't believe they got the football hero. I should have been worried and cautious but i didn't believe that maybe someone does know other than us four. Why did i have to be so stubborn!?

Today i was thinking about Helen and how she had been talking about getting married. I certainly don't want to get married anytime soon and certainly not with Helen. Yea she is the channel five Golden girl and she is full of beauty but even with those features its still not enough to convince me. I want to tell her but i just cant seem to find it in me to break a girls heart like that. I mean we have been together for a year now, But she was only supposed to be my high school girl. Now here i am in college still dating Helen Rivers the channel five Golden girl. I mean i do owe her for standing by me that night. I don't know but somehow i'm going to break the news to her sometime soon.

This can't be, it has to be some kind of sick joke. How could anyone know about what happened that night. God it has been so long it barely crosses my mind anymore. Now I can't stop thinking about it. I went over to Helen's apartment and i even got there half an hour early. When she opened the door and greeted me, I knew there was someone else in the apartment by the way she greeted me. I walked into the living area and there sitting on Helen's sofa was Julie with a worried look on her face. At that moment i couldn't believe why Helen couldnt jus tell me what was so important. But as soon as i began to think that, Helen interrupted my thoughts with her saying that julie had something to say. Then, Julie handed me a letter with no return address on it. I opened it and read the big bold words: I know what u did last summer.... As I read the sentence i got goosebumps all over my arms and neck. My first thoughts were that its jus some kind of sick joke, crazy prank someone was trying to pull. No one could possibly know it was us or that we even had anything to do with that incident! I told Helen and Julie not to think anything of it. Theres no way someone could know and even if they did, y would they wait so long to do something like this. I told Helen i had a lot of studying to do and i left. I almost had a complete flashback of the incident on my way back home. I dont think i could ever forget that night. It was me, Ray, Helen, and Julie. We had just left a party. I remember me and Ray fighting for the back seat. Ray won and Helen and i were in the front, I was driving. We had drank a couple beers and smoked some pot just like we would at any other party. I was driving down a curvey road by a picnic area. When out of no where we hit someone riding their bike with no lights or reflectors. I stomped on my brakes and made a complete stop. We sat there and argued wether we should go back or not. Finally i decided we would stop at the next pay phone and report the incident. When we got to the pay phone, Ray got out and dialed 911. He told them that someone just got in a car accident and the location. When he was about to start giving out names i hung up the phone for him. That's when reality started to set in. I told Ray the obvious, we can't give out names because my ass is on the line and I'm the only one that is eighteen. I would get a manslaughter case and then i can say goodbye to my scholarship. Ray immediately understood the consequences and that he could have been the one driving too. I then told the girls the situation and that i wasn't about to turn around and go back. So we made a vote. Helen voted with me and understood my point of view. Ray also agreed with me. Julie was the only one that couldn't seem to get the big picture about going back and trying to help. But we had the majority vote so we all made a pact not to ever speak of or ever mention what happened that night ever again.

Journal Entry 1

This is the first time i ever write a journal entry and i don't know how to start it but I'll just give it a shot anyway. My name is Barry Cox and i am currently enrolled at the University. My girlfriend is the Golden Girl at the channel five news station. Her name is Helen Rivers, one of the prettiest girl god has ever put on this earth for me to see. I've been dating her since high school and i really didn't think it would last this long to tell you the truth. I've been wanting to tell her that she is not the woman i want to marry and have a family with, but for some reason i cant. I would feel bad for her because she actually wants to get married. I guess I'll just have to wait for the right moment right? Anyway i just got off the phone with her and she didn't sound like herself. i know something is wrong. She asked me to come over to her place after work like around 7 p.m. I tried telling her that i was busy for the week. i have a lot of studying to get done. She rarely bothers me like that so it must be important. I might even be a little early, I'm anxious to hear what she has to say to me.